When you’re lonely, where do you go?
A cafe, a bookstore, and a luxurious grocery shop
Today I feel lonely. Before, I would urge myself to find the cause of my loneliness. Now, I’m learning that — unless the reason is obvious — it’s better to accept the feeling and focus on things that would carry you towards feeling unlonely, loved and befriended. Those are antonyms. I checked.
In the morning, I tried to go with the ordinary flow. I sat in my ordinary place in the living room. I opened my ordinary laptop. I worked my ordinary work. After three hours, I felt how the digestive juices in my guts were boiling. That loneliness started to really piss me off. Now I was angry and lonely. Something had to be done. I bared my psychological fangs to suck the strength out of my boyfriend. He refused to be sucked out. The walls in my flat started to press on me and I had to flee somewhere.
Somewhere happened to be one of the cafes in the city centre. I like that one particular place because the street is pretty and not too crowded. When I got there, all the seats outside were empty. I chose the best spot. I sat. I puffed up like a pigeon and crossed my arms to save internal heat. A waitress came. I ordered a small filtered coffee. She said what? I said a small filtered coffee again. She said ah okay. In a minute, a cup of small filtered coffee…
