Who am I without my job?

There are so many things about us that the job title omits to mention

This Monday is the first day of my first non-working working week. It’s not a vacation. I’m voluntarily unemployed. Some reactions I got from people suggest that there’s something wrong with quitting one job without transitioning into another. Otherwise, they wouldn’t tell me it’s okay to quit if you already have something else. I don’t. That’s the point. I don’t want to have another job right now. I want to experience my Anton Jobless era thoroughly and without distractions like…work.

It’s a privilege, of a kind.

I have a boyfriend who’s keeping his job for now. We’re still two people and our expenses cover two people, not one, so not earning money is not an easy decision. I left not because I had enough money not to work. I left because I didn’t have enough resources to keep working. I’m depleted. Taking a week off is not helpful anymore. Even a month is not enough. I tried. I need something different, something unconventional.

Even if I’m not switching jobs,I’m still in transition. It’s a different modus operandi, and it’s terrifying. I don’t know where I am headed.

What am I now?